I'm back, and I have someone very special I'd like to introduce you guys to. She's an old friend of mine, had her many years now. Her name is Maya, and she's my Shadow Doll.
As you've probably figured out by now, I'm more than a crazy horror fan who likes to blog. I do many creative things other than writing projects. I like to craft too. But usually, I craft very personal, spiritually significant things for myself. Rarely have I shown people my treasures. I figure I should change this. I love the things I create, and Maya is special.
Maya was created to help me deal with some of my own personal demons. She is the embodiment of one aspect of my shadow self. I am of a belief (and I'm not alone in this) that we all have Shadow selves, darker parts of our spirits that we may or may not like. Sometimes our shadows are monsters to us, the most vile and hideous parts of us. Sometimes, they are the parts of us that are the most sensitive or tender. Sometimes they are beautiful creatures we deny because we cannot believe we could ever be so beautiful. A shadow is a complicated creature, but as long as it is something you fear or deny it will always remain in shadow.
I found an old porcelain doll and re-created my shadow self on it. It was a fun project. I painted her up, re-dressed her and voila! I had my own huggable version of my inner darkness. Isn't she cute? And she is really good to cuddle.
Our shadows are with us to teach us things. We cannot be whole without them. I found a creative and fun way to try to accept my own. I thought it would be neat to share with you folks. Hope you enjoy my very own version of a Living Dead Doll. *wink*